When Will I Laugh Upon The Sky?

Everyone needs a purpose, no matter what it may be. There is no life without purpose. Whether it’s education, work, religion, or anything really. We all need to feel like we are part of something bigger, or are aiming for something higher.

From my short experience on this Earth I don’t think very many people ever actually get to where they are going. There is a reason the grass is always greener on the other side. People will always desire something better, something bigger. Once you get your phone, computer, car, or finish writing your story, winning that competition, or getting that job promotion. It will be nice for the first few hours, days, maybe even weeks. Eventually though there will come a point when that accomplishment is not enough, and more is needed.

Maybe this inner drive is why the human race has advanced as far as it has? People say we live in dark times. Religious leaders say there are an ever increasing number of unholy heathens living in these days. Maybe that’s true, but the actual state of living in this world is better than it has ever been. I can sit in my home, with the comfort of food, shelter, and an abundance of luxuries by my side. I do not have to worry about my house being raided in the night and me being killed in my sleep. There was a time when such things occurred regularly and were a legitimate reason to fear for your live. REAL STRESS. We have order now. The world is growing in more ways than just population. We are advancing, and at a rapid rate.

The world may always have differences between cultures, and wars between religions. Maybe one day we won’t though. Nothing is impossible. One step at a time.

Our problems now are far more internal, and are brought upon us more often than not solely because we are weak and allow them to.

How many people are willing to admit such weakness though? That their day sucks because their mind is weak, and they are inadequate. Not because Susy is a bitch, or Tom’s an asshole. (those are just the first name’s that came to me, no offense to any Susy’s or Tom’s out there)
Shit, well since it’s raining outside my whole day is ruined. Time to hate my life.

I believe that as a whole, humans just need something to worry about, inherently we desire happiness. We all do. Maybe there is no happiness without strife, and that is the reason we constantly face troubles in our every day activities over the smallest of events. We force ourselves to have problems so that we can have joy. There is no day without the night.

Maybe instead though, we are simply too absorbed in our own realities and are blinded by the beautiful world around us. The world is a truly marvelous place. Gusts of wind, streams of water, the perfect balance of power found within in nature.

Look at your arm. Clench your fist. Is that not remarkable? A notion. A thought. Then action. Something unfathomably complex, yet simple happens. Your body translates words into actions. Within seconds you are able to do anything.

My mind can’t comprehend itself. All of its strengths, its weaknesses. They are of one thread. One cannot exist without the other.

Is there a way to conquer your own mind?

Meditation?

Prayer?

Purpose?

“When you realize how perfect the world is you will look up at the sky and laugh.”
~Unknown (Buddha did not actually state this)

It seems like a pipe dream, but who knows? Maybe one day my chest will hurt and I’ll be crying because it’ll all be just too damn funny. It’s a shame that day is not today.

If anyone made it through all this and knows at all what the hell I’m talking about please enlighten me. Because I’ve got no fucking clue.

I guess that’s the point though.

Until next time, stay frosty internet.

I AM GONNA START LIVE STREAMING!!!!

So it has been approximately 3 weeks since I have last posted on my blog here (clearly not my intentions at all, but I am a lazy sack of crap sometimes). I wanted to hop on and write a post though because I have what I consider to be pretty big news.

I AM GONNA START LIVE STREAMING!!! (As the title of this post would imply).

I just ordered a webcam and that should be coming by the end of the week. Once I have that camera I have all the equipment I need to begin live streaming on Twitch. I have OBS (Open Broadcast Software) installed and ready to go. My monitor and tv shall serve as what I game on, and how I communicate with the chat. Then all that is left is to actually stream some gameplay!!!

I came to the conclusion that I wanted to live stream for a few reasons.

1.) To have a way to consistently grow my YouTube audience.

2.) I can consistently practice playing HearthStone (or whatever else I play) while growing connections with people.

3.) To be able to produce ‘content’ on a regular basis that is easy for me to do. Meaning I don’t have to constantly write descriptions, create tags, and come up with new thumbnails all the time.

4.) I could potentially make a living off of being a live streamer, and that is a factor I can’t ignore.

5.) It just looks like it’ll be fun as hell.

I am really looking forward to this, and I plan to be very consistent and stream almost everyday for atleast a few hours.

Follow me here http://www.twitch.tv/segmentedwhale

That’s it for now, I hope you all are as excited as I am!

Until next time, stay frosty internet. 

The Road to Legendary

There comes a point in every young man’s life where he must decide what it is that he wants to do with his life. I have figured it out my friends. I want to to make it to legendary rank in hearthstone one day.
I know it will be a tumultuous and taxing journey, filled with ups, downs, and a rollercoaster of emotions.
It all begins here.
I am ready.

This is one of my goals. I hope to accomplish it by the end of the summer. Let’s see if I can do it.

Until next time, stay frosty internet.

Keeping the Fire Stoked

It’s hard to keep up with these Internet goals. Posting daily content is difficult, yadda-yadda. I’ve said it all before.

I have the next two days off from work and I hope to bust out a lot of content, and prep myself for being a bit more dedicated to my YouTube endeavors. 

SegmentedWhale is going to be moving full steam ahead in the direction of HearthStone. Most of my content will be composed of it, and I am figuring out different series that I can make. Series where I talk about theory, decks, and all kinds of good stuff. HearthStone videos have been some of the most fun for me to make and building a community around it couldn’t make me happier.

Pen spinning videos are still going to be coming, starting next Monday I will be posting them weekly. So expect some more tutorials!

I’ve been lazy and distracted and am definitely not where I planned myself to be a month ago. The fire is still burning though, and the most important thing is to make sure it at least stays lit.

Until next time, stay frosty internet.

YouTube, Life, and COFFEE!!

I slept for nearly 12 hours last night. I haven’t done that in probably close to half a year, and it was a little disappointing but at the same time nice, because it must have meant I needed to catch up on some sleep. It was very sound, quality sleep and I actually did feel quite refreshed upon my awakening.

Aside from the abundance of shut-eye last night I just wanted to hop on and give a little bit of a update on my plans for YouTube, this blog, and life in general.

As far as YouTube goes I think am going to be posting more HearthStone gameplay as I really enjoy the whole process that it entails. From the actually live commentary recording, to watching the game plays after and seeing how I could have made better plays or employed different tactics. I enjoy the whole process and think that this is where I want to start bringing my channel.

I realize that my subscriber count will undoubtedly drop, but that is fine considering I have almost 200 subscribers currently and average maybe 15 views a video.

I want to be producing content that I am excited to be posting and sharing. Hopefully over time I can build a HearthStone fan base and become part of a community within the game. It has been a while since I have been part of a strategy game community and it would be really swell if it happened.

I still plan on posting other game plays (if I ever actually capture any, I’ve been failing on that front as of late), and I want to continue the pen spinning tutorial series. So expect more of those, they aren’t going anywhere.

Admittedly, it is tough though to not be getting the results I desire. I put a lot of time and effort into my videos and to get such a small viewing is unfortunately discouraging for me. I am working on mentally overcoming this though. It can’t be about results, it has to be about the work itself. I can’t let such things keep me from progressing, and continuing to strive to do better for my channel.

In the coming days I will be doing a  dual commentary with my good friend Billy Bedlam. This dude has been there for me since I started my channel. He has pushed me to make videos when I wasn’t feeling it, and he has helped keep me on track. I WOULD NOT come as far as I have without his support. So thanks to him. He makes CoD commentaries and posts some seriously sick game plays. This guy has some skills, and I love seeing how he has grown as a YouTuber. It is very encouraging.

 

Now, as far as this blog goes I want to continue to try and post whenever I want to give an update or drop some thoughts down on the web. I want to treat this blog as my mind’s outlet. A casual place where I can just let loose some thoughts. Otherwise, it just becomes a project for me that I don’t want to deal with, and I don’t want it to become that again. Nice and simple is how it shall go.

Life-wise (meaning outside of my internet world), I have had my up and downs. As most of you know I was diagnosed with Crohn’s about a month ago, and between all the medications and the doctor’s appointments it has taken it’s toll on me both mentally and physically. My doctor wants me to start Remicaid infusions, which is similar to being chemotherapy (the process of how it is given to me atleast). It is supposed to help me a lot, but I really don’t think I’ll be able to handle that every 6 weeks. My anxiety levels with needles are through the roof, and I just don’t know what I’m going to do on that front. We will see I suppose.

I picked up a second job at Dunkin Donuts, and will be working there on the weekends in the coming weeks. I wanted to change things up and free coffee is going to be sick, because I have a large iced coffee every single day, haha. Buffalo Wild Wings has me becoming a WCT (Wings Certified Trainer), so that gives me some more opportunities within the company. It is nice to have my foot in the door and have the options there for me.

 

Kudos to anyone who made it through all of that, it turned into quite a bit more than I intended but I suppose that just means that I had a lot to get out of my head. Thanks for the continual support everyone. I enjoy writing when I don’t see it as work. Tis’ truly a shame that school tainted it in my mind as such. That’s just another mental obstacle to overcome. 😛

Until next time, stay frosty internet.

The Path Through Life

How many people do you think have it figured out? Seriously though. How many people do you think have an unwavering, doubtless, sense of purpose? I can’t imagine there are too many, but there must be some out there.

I pose this question because I personally, along with most others I imagine, think it is nearly impossible to just know what the end goal is. Even just what the next step is. It’s tough man. It’s difficult to determine what you want in life. It’s even more difficult to determine how to get there.

Baby steps.

Do what you love, and love what you do. Seems to be the best answer to me. 

I’m just gonna keep trying to stay physically active, post youtube videos, drink green tea, and stay positive. 

Until next time, stay frosty internet.

 

How to Start and Maintain Good Habits

Keeping up with habits that benefit me is quite difficult. Exercising regularly, eating right all the time, working on YouTube videos, and blogging are just to list a few. I think that we all have a hard time continuing a project or lifestyle that we deem to be important to us on a regular basis. It can be challenging to push yourself to do these things everyday on a consistent schedule.

Being the internet-addicted nerd that I am, whenever I stumble into a problem I resort to online research of some form or another (99.99% if the time beginning with a Google search). This time around I was searching for some ways to start and maintain a habit. What I found was actually quite interesting. But before I dive what I found I want to set a little ‘backstory’ up.

Many times when we decide to revamp our lives in some way, it is in more than just one way. We decide that we will begin eating better, and running 3 times a week, and writing every morning, and meditating for at least 10 minutes a day. This is the wrong approach to take though. When we try to pile on all of these habits at once, we overwhelm ourselves and discourage ourselves from doing most of if not all of what we are setting out to do.

It is proposed that instead of trying to begin all of these at once, try to simply begin them one at a time. By beginning these positive habits one at a time, we give ourselves just enough to continually progress without trying to commit to too much all at once.

On top of this begin small. Instead of starving yourself and jumping head first into that diet, start by making a conscious effort to eat an apple for a snack instead of a Little Debbie or whatever have you. Or maybe you want to exercise more frequently, start by doing some light exercises and stretches everyday for 10 minutes or so. There’s no need to throw yourself into a gym right away when all you need to get started is yourself. Don’t just go balls to the wall crazy out of the gate, because you will more than likely burn out and become unmotivated to press onward.

On a side note for having motivation in general (which I can find to be extremely difficult too many a time), I occasionally watch some motivational YouTube videos to try and light a fire under myself. There is this one video that sends a really solid message.

—— https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTFnmsCnr6g ——-

The message that I take from it (and I assume most people do), is that we need to realize what we want in life and just go for it. A quote from the video is “When you want success as much as you want to breathe then you will be successful.” Meaning pretty clearly that we have to constantly pursue that which we want. We can’t just “start that project tomorrow”, or “maybe later, I’m kind of tired right now”. We have to Nike that shit and just do it.

All rambling aside I hope I helped someone get started on their life’s work. I wrote this post half to help others and half to help myself. We are all capable of great things, we must first realize this fact though.

Until next time, stay frosty internet.